I am facing harder times it seems. I need to recollect myself and try to be better at all this, but I fear I'll tip too far away to fully swing back. Hopefully it doesn't end like that, hopefully I can be more content and at peace with things circling me. But until then, I'm going to take a break from this and see if that helps. I only ever started doing all this as a way to vent it all out and it did help a lot, but I don't know... lately it hasn't been enough and - if anything, counter-productive to the reason by bringing me further down. I'm tired, really really tired and drained on all fronts, so I need to take a break.

Love you all,

Connor